Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Teacups

I was tagged by my dear fellow blogger (and friend!) TaunaLen, who has posted a couple of wonderful “8 random things” entries! Here’s a (less creatively written) post for my tag:

I love teacups. I have loved them for as long as I can remember. Especially those with delicately flowered patterns. When I was a young girl, I spend endless minutes gazing at the corner shelf in my Grandma’s living room. It was here, which she kept her collection of teacups. I rarely touched any of them, but oh, I loved their beautiful and wispy pastel patterns swirling across the cups and matching saucers...save for one brightly colored chintz! There was also a floral pattern of roses; deep and richly colored, with bits of leaves scattered among the roses. It was this pattern which inspired my wedding china collection. For this particular teacup and saucer that sat on my Grandmother’s shelf, was always my favorite. Made by Royal Doulton, it is called “Old Country Roses”. A classic pattern, straight from England, and likely to be around forever.

When my Grandmother died, I was too young to take precedence in dispersing her few belongings. So her beloved teacup collection (and mine too!) went to an Aunt, and subsequently, to a cousin. My cousin is a fellow tea-lover, so it isn’t entirely inappropriate—but—I still long for those teacups to reside in my own home, where I can admire them, and remember the dear lady who collected them. My cousin, is such by marriage, and therefore has little memory of my Grandma. But such is life, and such is the way of possessions. I imagine I will always grieve for that collection! In an effort to encourage me, my Aunt (mother-in-law of said cousin) purchased a lovely teacup and saucer one Christmas, and gave it to me. I cried when I opened it, for I knew her heart was to replace my “lost” teacups in the only way she knew how. And so, this first teacup, given in such love to me, began a new collection—mine.

I’ve added to my collection over the years—since before I married. Many are gifts; mostly newer teacups, given by those closest to me. I’ve scoured antique stores on my own, adding beautiful teacups to my collection. And once in awhile, I am given an antique teacup, by someone who knows me well enough to pick out a pattern I love! One particular cup was purchased for myself, by myself...but my husband gave me $20 one terribly depressing day, and sent me antique exploring. It was a difficult winter for me, and for us, and now when I see that cup and saucer (which happens to be a favorite!), I am reminded of his love. The cup and its saucer are white porcelain, and very delicate...the ring of roses around each piece, is faded in color, but still a lovely pastel pinkish hue. The set was made in Bavaria by well-known Zeh Scherzer Co. (often Bavarian china is incredibly patterned with the most beautiful of delicate flowers—typically roses!) Both pieces are edged in a thin scroll of gold, also faded, but not disappearing yet. It is unbelievable that the time away, along with the lovely cup, actually revived my spirits that day, but indeed, my heart was lifted. Although I picked it out alone, I still consider that teacup and saucer to be a gift, and one which will always be close to my heart.

I never choose teacups for the manufacturer, although I have come to love several particular makers...no, I choose them because I love them. Because I will cherish them, use them with care, and someday, Lord willing, pass them on to my daughters.

I love the quiet “clink” sound of teacups in use, as they are set upon their saucers. I love the curved handles, designed to be held by a lady. When I use a teacup (which was more often prior to having children running about!), I enjoy rinsing it with hot water to warm it, and then, once finished with as many cups of tea as I can hold, there is the simple ritual of hand-washing to preserve the patterns gracing the china. With luck, the saucer may be able to hold just a cookie or two for nibbling, as I sip from its matching cup.

These days, I often resort to a floral mug of some sort, because they hold a greater quantity of tea without refilling, and they are sturdier for the constant moving I seem to do, mug in hand. But my deepest preference for drinking tea continues to be the china teacup. And when I gaze at my collection, I am reminded of the story behind each one, and of the woman (my Grandma) who inspired my love for china teacups. I am filled with a quiet sense of peace, a satisfaction in knowing that if there was to be no other beauty in my life, these cups would suffice. Better than fresh roses on the table (as lovely and sweet-smelling as they are), are the roses which adorn my china teacups.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Life is a gift

Today we attended the funeral for the church member who suddenly died last weekend, from a blood clot to the heart. His dear widow wept through the service; he was her life, and at 65, it will be difficult for her to start over. It was a fine service, officiated by my older brother, who has been mentioned in my blog numerous times. His first funeral to preside over. I’m sure it broke his heart to do it, but he spoke well, and spoke sincerely. He was there when this man was accepted Christ as Savior and was baptized, not all that long ago...was there when each of them had various illnesses requiring hospitalization...and was there when this man passed from this earth into his eternity.

It is a sobering thing, to attend a funeral. My first, in quite some time, that wasn’t for a relative. My last funeral was for my cousin (see tags in sidebar), gone now for almost 2 years. Unbelievably. Today, when I stepped beside the casket to view the man, all I could see was my cousin. They were close in age, both with graying beards and long lashes. I wasn’t able to look for more than a second today—tears came fast and unexpectedly, in the wake of my cousin’s memory. But even throughout the funeral, I found myself shedding tears; I realize that the man is better off now, with His Lord, away from the sorrows of earth. But the grief and shock he leaves behind; the emptiness his widow is feeling (although she will lean heavily on Our Lord), it is heart-wrenching, and difficult to understand. Why did it have to happen to this man, to his wife? She is a dear and sensitive lady, but her life has already been filled with pain and difficulty. Why couldn’t she have him at her side for the remainder of her years? It breaks my heart to see her alone, without him beside her, where he has always been since they joined our small Body. I guess these questions are the same we all ask...it is in these questions that the greatest pain of death lies. For even when we know our loved one is with Our Lord, we still grieve. But not for them, as much as for ourselves. We grieve our loss, we feel our emptiness, we miss our beloved one. We grieve for all they left behind; knowing deep inside, that what they go to is far greater. Death, just like life, is full of contradiction, isn’t it?

I remember Beverly's husband and children this week; and other family members who grieve for her. Another dear one whom we rejoice for, as she is at last, cancer-free; and with her Savior. Yet, she leaves behind a hole. A big one. Older children; one with a family, one starting college...and sons still at home, even young boys in elementary school. A loving husband, who is now, suddenly, thrust into single parenthood, and widowed, simultaneously. Another paradox; joy for her, but sorrow for those who carry on without her. I cannot wish her back, for truly, she is in a glorious eternity...but yet...I cannot wish her gone, for her family needs her still.

This week has been too full of death. Yet we all face it; none of us will escape it, until Our Lord returns. We do not know the moment we will meet with Him for eternity; every moment on earth is a gift. Life is a gift. Yet a greater gift lies beyond. Hard to imagine though; for we learn to dearly love what surrounds us here, even among such a tarnished earth; such a life filled with hardship and pain. We still find love, we find happiness, and if we will trust in Jesus, we find peace, hope, and lasting joy. And so we treasure this gift of life, and we fight to hold onto it. We fight to stay with those we love. And we grieve when the fight is lost by one of our own.

I am thankful this week, to still have those near and dear to me. I am thankful that while I ache for those who have lost loved ones, I am not one of them. Not this time. I am reminded to take every day as it comes. To look for moments of life’s joy, in the midst of struggles. To hug my children and be thankful for them, even in frustration! To hug my husband and be thankful for his life, his support, his presence with us. To remember that life is, indeed, a gift.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

A bad day, but a good recipe!

My husband worked at least 70 hours this week. So he’s pretty exhausted, and is back at work tonight. I can barely move, feel quite exhausted myself from this week, and am enjoying practice contractions. This morning, neither of us could move. Not that there’s actually a choice in the matter!! We did of course, have to get up and feed/care for the kids. I lacked energy to make tea; which is unfortunate, because my day went from bad to worse!

It all started this morning...we noticed a couple of little mealy worms on the kitchen floor. The kind that infests flour and such products. No big deal. Kill them and find the infestation...usually a bag of flour...get rid of it, and problem solved. I’ve only had one infestation before, years ago, in another home. It was awful, but after tossing some bags and boxes and spraying and cleaning the pantry cabinet, no more problems. And 2 little wormy creatures didn’t really equal an infestation anyway. But those couple worms turned into a LOT of them; they kept coming out. And we kept killing them. There wasn’t really a source...a nearly empty box of cornstarch perhaps...no flour sacks, no oatmeal boxes. Nothing else. Weird I thought...wonder where they came from and what is driving them to crawl into daylight? We spent all morning killing the little creatures, vacuuming, mopping every inch of vinyl flooring.... Finally, they are all gone. And my kitchen needed a good mop anyway :)

About the time we finally finished with the little wormy creatures, I noticed a puddle of water on the floor, in front of the cabinets. Kind of a big puddle. Another one was in front of the pantry closet in an adjoining laundry/bath. Hmmmmm. In fact, getting on my hands and knees, I noticed that the kick plates (trim boards under cabinets) were seeping water. Nothing under the sink though...and no leaking from the dishwasher. The floor of the pantry closet was wet though. Which meant only one thing. Somehow, somewhere, the shower (all tiled from floor to ceiling, and on the opposite side of the kitchen wall) had a leak. Either in the drain (and above the concrete slab foundation) or in the water supply lines. Not good. Not good at all. There was a lot of water continuing to seep into the kitchen, pantry, under wall trim and so forth. It made sense...the water had driven those nasty little worm creatures out. They were probably attracted to the dampness behind the walls...yes, that was most likely the source. Uh-oh. So we might have had water there for quite some time. Not. Good. Indeed, those little bugs turned out to be the least of our problems.

Just as we were busily mopping up water, my Mom called, then my Dad with some sad news. A member of our congregation, a man only around 50, died from 2 blood clots hitting his heart. The result of another recent injury. He leaves behind his 65-yr-old wife; though mismatched in age, the couple loved eachother dearly, took good care of one another, and lived simply and frugally. We were quite concerned for his dear wife, no doubt devastated by this sudden and tragic loss—but—holding up well under the circumstances. In the midst of our own mini-crisis, I am thankful that our crisis can be fixed (eventually) and cleaned up...her life has changed forever. A sobering thought.

We soaked up towels of water all day long, as water continued to seep under floor trim...this afternoon my Dad dropped by to have a look. My husband had to change clothes and leave for work. So my Dad (thankfully!) tore off some trim, pieces of wallboard (which was soft behind the trim—yikes!), and then cut a square of wall from the pantry closet which reveals the water supply lines for the shower. Bingo. Corrosion. The upside is, the shower shouldn’t need to be torn out, as it isn’t a drain issue and the pipes are now visible. I can also use the sink, dishwasher, washing machine, and toilet—just not the shower; that helps with convenience, as I have piles of laundry to do (as usual!), and now a pile of wet towels to wash and dry. The downside is, I have pinhole leaks in the supply line which are dripping water currently...my kitchen is a mess, my laundry/bath/pantry is disheveled...and we haven’t talked to a plumber yet, so we don’t know what kind of bill we’re looking at. And water is still seeping.

After a day like this, I am exhausted. I’ve missed the usual rest a Sunday brings, the time to enjoy one another, read to the kids and so forth. But I felt the necessity to make dinner for the little ones. Something worthwhile to fill their tummies before bed. And so, taking stock of what I had on hand, and with only a tiny bit of energy left, here is what I made. It turned out well and the kids loved it!

Spaghetti Frittata
8 eggs
8 oz pkg diced ham
1 ½ cups mozzarella cheese, shredded
About 2 cups leftover cooked spaghetti
Some green onions, chopped
Extra cheese for topping, if desired

Whisk eggs in bowl. Stir in ham, cheese, spaghetti, and onions. Pour into baking dish and sprinkle more cheese over the top. Pop it into the oven and bake for about 30 minutes at 350 degrees. Pull it out and enjoy! If you have a bit more spaghetti leftover, go ahead and toss it all into the mixture; if you have less, adjust the recipe. If you want to add mushrooms (I forgot mine!!) or another vegetable such as spinach, do that. You could also make it in a skillet if you’d rather, and cook till the eggs are set. I was too tired to stand by the stove tonight, so I baked mine.

Saturday, September 8, 2007

A Week's Worth of Blessings

Well, another week has come and gone...and a busy one around our home, it was! So, I completely missed my usual “Thankful Thursday” post, without even realizing it. Oops. But I must say, despite some normal difficulties encountered, the week did hold plenty to be thankful for. Today I will call them “Blessings”.

I’ve said this before, but we really do have a wonderful library system in our city, and I’m so thankful for this resource! I particularly enjoyed checking out a few books for myself this week.

A delightful new e-zine publication, Seasonal Delights, just in time to welcome in the season of Autumn. I enjoyed printing some of the lovely pages this week, which included new recipes to try!

My friend and “Japanese sister” (we go back to high school, when she came to America to complete her education) came by for a visit this week. She even brought me a Starbucks. What a way to start the day!!

Just a few days after praying about some of our family needs, another friend (also from high school!) brought over 3 bags of clothing for my children! Her 3 kids are each about 1-2 years ahead of mine (by age) and so their outgrown clothes work perfectly for my kids. Among the items is a winter coat for my youngest...winter coats for my older two were received several weeks ago as well. It is an amazing blessing to receive hand-me-downs, and it is a pleasure to turn around then, and pass our outgrown items to another family and keep the circle going.

My blood sugar levels have been relatively easy to maintain with this pregnancy; at least so far! I do try and be careful to keep my protein intake high and my carb intake lower, but it is truly a blessing to be somewhat relaxed about it. (I had gestational diabetes in my last pregnancy, and therefore have strong potential to develop it again).

I received the “Nice Matters” award from another blogging friend on xanga. If you haven’t met Karen, do drop by and say “hi” to her. She is raising a large family, but somehow makes it look easy and delightful. I’ve been inspired to relax and enjoy my growing family, through reading her blog for over a year now. Her compliments to me were so sweet and humbling, and it is truly a delight to be an encouragement to the other ladies I meet, or those who simply drop in to read my blog.

Another hour or so, and I will be finished going through my children’s clothing for the next season...this becomes a bigger job with each child, but is a necessary one, and I don’t mind doing it at all. It just takes some time and patience.

My eyelet-trimmed baby quilt is completed (a simple patchwork), along with a few other small sewing projects. If our digital camera was working, I’d take photos to post. I love to sew, and it is a joy to have time here and there to work on this hobby.

A fresh new week is just around the corner, and with it, will come a couple days of cooler temperatures, and the possibility for rain; which we really do need. Some fresh air will be wonderful and we might just have some perfect ‘outdoor’ days ahead!

My husband and my children are always cherished. Oh, we have our days, our moments...there are times I really feel the need to escape to the nearest Starbucks...but I am so thankful for each of them, and for this precious life I carry. She is becoming quite active and I love the frequent reminders of her presence, which come along with every roll and kick!

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Thursday's Thankful List

Another Thursday has come; time to consider all that which makes up my world and choose thankfulness in the midst of worries life brings. Today it is particularly challenging, for while there is no short of basic blessings; food, water, a home, a soft bed, showers, and so forth…it has still been an unusually trying week, with my husband’s schedule changes and various behavior issues we are working on in our little home. And I am so weary this week; from disturbed rest (late 2nd trimester changes, I’m sure!). We have completed only a bit of school today, but are taking a break to be outside.

This morning, my youngest (2) woke up at 5am. Yep, that’s right 5:00AM. Who knows why…but…she is still up. No nap yet, no rest…just energy. I’m thankful she isn’t whiny and crying as would typically be expected. She seems quite jovial today! But her Mama is tired and less jovial. My son was up at 6am, then our oldest at 7am. The older 2 needed a bit more rest I think, and so perhaps we will have early bedtimes tonight! And if I’m successful in this, then I will have another reason to be thankful! LOL.

I’m thankful to have completed a load of laundry, although I have much more to work on. J

I’m thankful that the weather has cooled, if only for today. There is still humidity in the air, and mosquitoes flying everywhere…but…we are enjoying a pleasant morning outdoors. Due to the heat, we haven’t been outside for morning playtime in awhile, so it’s good to have fresh air in our lungs and enjoy the sounds of nature. A cool breeze blows through every couple of minutes as well.

I’m thankful that the early signs of Fall are appearing (partly due to dryness, but appearing just the same!)…leaves are already falling from the trees, though not in great numbers yet. Our neighbor’s tree is slowly turning yellow, and the deep blue of the summertime sky is taking on a grayish hue reminiscent of cooler weather. The deep, dark green of our trees is fading every so slightly, in readiness for the changing colors ahead. And the coneflower has dried up now as well. Indeed, Fall is coming, slowly yet, but still on its way.

I’m thankful that my kids are healthy and (relatively) happy. I watch as they run about the yard, dig in the sandbox, and swing on our swingset. It may not last long, as inevitably a disagreement will erupt—but—for now, it is blissful to hear the sounds, and to see, even my youngest running around on her squatty toddler legs.

I’m thankful for the pumpkin patch my Dad planted, which we will enjoy in another month or two!

I’m thankful for the lovely little family celebration we had this week, for my baby’s 2nd birthday. Complete with my chocolate cake covered in chocolate frosting. Mmmmmmmmm.

I’m thankful to have my family; my children and my husband, however difficult this week is, and no matter how weary I become. I wouldn’t trade any of them, nor the little one growing inside me. Speaking of which, I am also grateful to feel her little kicks each day, as they grow stronger and stronger. A pleasant reminder of her existence in our lives.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Today is a delightfully overcast; the winds are blowing gray clouds to cover the pale blue in our late summer sky. I can hear the delicate clanging of my wind chime as it sways from its perch. We had a brief shower of rain this morning, but not enough to soak our grass…so I am (of course) hoping for more before the day is over. Crunchy granola bakes in my oven this afternoon, filling our home with its honey-cinnamon scent. It will be a lovely snack, with golden raisins and dried cranberries added to it, once it has cooled. It is these simple things I am thankful for, this week. J

We are in a period of adjustment, as my husband has just changed work locations (inconveniently and more expensively—to the other side of town!). Along with this, comes a great deal of hours changes as well. Not all a bad thing, as he will likely work a few less hours per week—but—we will all be adjusting to the changes, as he will work most evening hours now. And his days off will vary from week to week, including the addition of Sunday hours to his new schedule (but not every Sunday, thankfully). So, our week has been filled with discussion of these changes, and I haven’t figured out my new routine yet, with him home each morning. School has been hit and miss I’m afraid, but we should begin working towards normalcy next week. Amidst the disruption, I am thankful that he has a job, when many do not.

I am thankful that our home is dry, and not full of mud or flood-waters as are many homes in Oklahoma, Ohio, Wisconsin, and other areas recently ravaged by unforgiving rainfalls, mudslides, and so forth. The death count from these floods is nearly 30; what unexpected tragedies for these families. I am thankful that we are (for this moment) safe as we go about our lives. Only God knows what tonight will bring, what tomorrow will bring, and what our future holds. I am grateful that I can rest in His peace, knowing that whatever He allows, He will also give the grace to handle it. Easier said, than practiced, when times of trial come, isn’t it? The depth of our faith is revealed in fire.

Another thankful item…my fellow blogger and friend TaunaLen has generously offered me a "Nice Matters" award on her blogs. So sweet of her! Thank you, Tauna! I think I could easily award it to any of my favorite blogs! I am grateful for my friends in this xanga community, and also, for the many bloggers I find in other blogging communities. I am amazed at the wonderful ideas, recipes, hints, advice and information that I can read through, with only the light tap of my mousepad. Using bloglines, or another feed, I can group my favorite blogs together, and it is like putting together my own magazine, specifically tailored to my personal preferences for subject matter. I’m thankful for the few moments I have every day or two, to browse blogs, print new recipes, jot down new books to review, and generally be encouraged and inspired.

Monday, August 20, 2007

All in a Day of Teaching

Some days, it is the teacher who learns more than the student. Today, we (my daughter and I) began to work on Math again—after probably too much of a break from it (can you say ‘retention loss’?). In only a few minutes, my bright daughter was frustrated to the point of tears, as was her teacher (me). It’s not so much that she can’t remember her addition facts, it is more that she’s not trying to—even with prompting such as “count by 5s, honey!”. She is discouraged before we really even start! Quietly concerned, I sat down with my Ray’s Arithmetic books, and most importantly, the Teacher Guide to the series (written by well-respected Dr Ruth Beechick). I realized that I had not done enough review with my daughter, as we were learning—at least not as much as she needed to learn her facts more concretely. She had done well with visualization and so I had moved on…but…after a summer break, it is apparent that we will need to do a LOT of review before moving forward. And that’s okay…I’m still learning too. Math is not her strong subject and memorization is not her strength either. She simply excels in other areas. And, adding to the challenge, she hates worksheets and drill work! But gentle drill we must do; review, review, review. I’m not concerned; she will catch up when she’s ready, as long as we are diligently working at it.

Back to her tears…several minutes later she is expressing a ridiculous amount of frustration over problems that are not difficult, but do require effort. She is allowed to use manipulatives to figure her work, so there really shouldn’t be ANY frustration. Furthermore, there is still an inordinate amount of tears. “Maybe she’s tired,” I think. But this goes deeper than the words “settle down!” Gathering my patience and a much kinder voice, I follow her to her room where she has retreated to do her work in quiet. Asking a couple questions about her frustration yields large teardrops falling to her page of problems. I’m so glad I took time to stop and listen to my little girl. I quickly hear that her voice holds more hurt than anger. She calls herself ‘stupid’ and ‘bad at math’—well, she is bright (as are all children, in their own ways!) and barely starting 3rd grade is far too early to be considered ‘bad’ at any subject, much less math! I tell her this gently and we talk some more….

My little one puts on a strong front, and can be quite the “know-it-all” (dare I guess where she gets it?), but deep inside she has the same streak of sensitivity I have. It’s the kind that never lets on when something hurts us; we probably don’t even cry, maybe not for weeks and weeks. Until one day, something punches that hidden bubble, and it bursts. Turns out, while taking a roadtrip last Spring, with one of her playmates, they had played an oral math game. Very soon into the game, my daughter couldn’t answer the problems anymore. She was told firmly by her peer, that she wasn’t very good at math at all. Maybe a couple of other demeaning statements; not really so cruelly intended at all—just a kid saying what kids say. Well, this situation was never shared with us, her parents, in typical half-kid/half-preteen fashion. She is just beginning those years of maturing, at the young age of 8. So, anyway…the story comes out, through tears. Those thoughtless but very typical kid-to-kid remarks cut my little one deeply, adding to an insecurity she already had, just because math frustrates her and she knows she doesn’t “get it” easily. Unfortunately, these types of kid statements are made, not infrequently, by this friend, so we are careful with the time my daughter spends with her (and we continue to work with our girl on learning to have self-confidence no matter what others say, and on placing importance in what God thinks, not what others think, etc. She will toughen up as she grows, but I want the toughening to be healthy confidence, and not just a brick wall around her heart!) My young one goes on to say that the remarks hurt her, and so she quit telling others that math wasn’t her thing; she made sure to keep it a secret from everyone else. My Mother’s heart nearly broke…I wish I had probed more about her hatred of math a few months ago, and learned then, what I learned today. Her resistance to math work, is what led me to choose to take a break from it, and has also led to frustration on my part as well, when it became a discipline issue. I had no idea there was a deeper “heart” issue at stake.

I lied down on her bed, and had her come snuggle with me as we talked more about it, and talked about strengths and weaknesses, our feelings, developing confidence in ourselves and most importantly in who we are in God, etc. Several minutes later, she seemed better, and was able to calmly sit and finish her work. Using her manipulatives, but with no more tears, no more frustration, and the gentle reassurance from her Mom that she desperately needs, but which I have been too lax at offering (much to my own shame). She is now having a remarkably good day, and playing happily—although—I’m not sure how much more “school” will be completed. I think we may have both learned enough for today!

Times like this, I am so glad she is at home with me, to learn. Although I learned some lessons today myself—I surely did!—I also was able to love her as her Mother, and offer unqualified acceptance to her broken little heart. I was able to see past defiance and frustration and (finally) discover the heart issue at stake with this subject called “math”. I wish I had slowed down and taken more time weeks ago; displayed more patience and softness to my little girl. It is so easy to think of her as ‘half-grown’ because she is my oldest. But she is far from grown, and is still quite young and in need of help, more often than she likes to admit. I must learn to be sensitive to this; of course, children come to us in their own time, and there’s no guarantee that she would have shared her troubles back when it happened. But I hadn’t given her enough opportunity either. Children need to feel safe and loved and protected before they will open up; another lesson to remember!

My patience and diligence—as both her Mother and her Teacher—are crucial now, especially in math. We have much review to do, but she is young and we have plenty of time. There is no need to worry if she is keeping up with her peers; as long as we keep moving forward, she will catch up. One reason to homeschool, is for the sake of individuality—for the purpose of *not* forcing my children to fit into the “one-speed-fits-all” box that prevails in typical school systems. I will develop a plan which will mix the use of worksheets (I can custom-print my own), the use of colorful ‘review’ type workbooks (already own, thanks to sister-in-law cleaning out her bookshelves!), the use of oral work and flashcard games, and, my daughter’s favorite—computer games (free on internet)! I will be using a similar mix of activities to work with my son on the alphabet and phonics. And maybe, for his math as well. (Which explains our interest in setting up an older computer with the new parts necessary to have our kids use it for educational purposes). I believe, with our combined efforts (of both myself and my daughter), we can conquer her math fears and hopefully, build a general sense of confidence in her heart as well, as we review and learn.

Thursday, August 9, 2007

A thankful list on Thursday

I am thankful for the deluge of rain we had last night…at first, it just poured down solidly with the wind whipping. Fun to listen to…but then, it turned into continual roars of thunder (really loud!) and lightning forking across the sky. A real summertime thunderstorm.

I am also thankful that 2 of my 3 kids slept through it…even I had trouble sleeping. Eventually, it stopped, but then started awhile later. Ugh. Today I am extremely groggy. BUT, I’m still grateful for the moisture. We are in quite the heatwave around here (100s) and it has been dry, dry. I wish a cool front had come with the rain, but, in August, that is really a bit much to even hope for!!

Given my groggy and grumpy state this morning, I am exceedingly grateful for my large mug of tea. And for the bowl of ‘bulgur porridge’ I just made for my toddler and I. (Older kids have already made themselves their cereal!) I’m hoping that the nutrients will help kickstart my energy, as I have laundry waiting for me…and grumpy kids…and school…the list goes on!

I am thankful that September is just around the corner. While we may retain heated temperatures, by the end of September, we will be catching glimpses of Fall around here, and I can’t wait. Even as a homeschool Mom, I love “back-to-school” time. Our own home takes on a new rhythm; I take advantage of school supplies sales; we return to explore the zoo (in cooler temps!); the library is, once again, empty!! (I just remembered, I am planning a garage sale in late September—ugh—as much as I want to CLEAR OUT, the thought of all the work is exhausting right now!)

I am thankful for the ‘quiet time’ I had with my husband last night…listening to the rain, talking, relaxing.

I am thankful for the small box of ‘Yankee’ votive candles I have. Just the thing I need to scent up the kitchen! Ohhhh, and I can’t wait to begin using my favored autumnal scents—the spicy ones. Mmmm!

I am thankful my new little niece was born this week—with no complications, a perfect little angel—number 4 to her family (my younger brother). 2 boys, then 2 girls. We will get to meet her a little later this month, but my parents came home from a quick visit (the family lives out of town), just raving about the new, sweet Grandbaby. Number 12 for them.

I am thankful for the bag of ‘pepitas’ I picked up yesterday at Whole Foods—which—I can’t seem to stay out of! Yes, I chose ‘roasted and salted’. J They are a good snack, and are inexpensive! Pepitas (little green pumpkin seeds) are a bit different from our typical jack-o-lantern pumpkin seeds, and are available year round. They combine wonderfully with other trail mix ingredients, but are just as yummy on their own—or—with dried cranberries. I haven’t tried them with chocolate chips, but, mixture of ‘sweet-n-salty’ is a tried and true favorite, so that might be worth eating!

I am thankful for my children and my husband…some days I think I do an okay job caring for them—but—I am still aware of how short I fall, and the grace I need to get through my days!

I am eternally grateful for Our God we serve and trust, for His grace, and for the peace He offers to those who simply lean on Him.

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

News and a Starbucks Story

I’m starting off my blog with an incredibly important piece of news….are you ready? Peter Pan peanut butter will be on shelves again NEXT MONTH!!!!!!!! (Or maybe this month, depending on stores stocking the product…) For serious Peter Pan PB addicts, like myself, this is almost the best news of the summer. I am sooooo tired of Jif (no offense to my Jif-loving xangans). I’m ready for my 6 lb tub of Peter Pan PB (Sam’s). Yes, I bulk-buy PB and we actually use it. And no, I’m not worried about its safety—in fact, after the numerous plant inspections and extensive micro-cleaning and safety procedures, I figure Peter Pan is actually the SAFEST peanut butter around. LOL!

In other news, my husband and I are busy creating Starbucks addicts out of our children. We don’t go weekly or anything; maybe once a month or less (generally speaking, but when I’m given a “card”, then sometimes we get extra visits!). So anyway, if we can afford to, we buy a drink for our two older kids to split—like a frappucino or something. Trouble is, my toddler is now yelling for her fair share these days. She used to happily take a drink when we shared with her—and then hand the cup back. But now, she holds on tightly! Tonight, she and I were running a couple errands, and so I thought I’d grab a Starbucks while we were out. She took a very late nap today and so I expect to be up quite late tonight. My little monkey starts clapping as soon as we hit the Starbucks drive thru.  Isn’t that hilarious? Needless to say, I ordered a “Venti” drink (iced mocha, lite ice) and asked for an extra cup/lid/straw so I could share just a little bit with her. Kept her quite happy the rest of the ride. Her favorite thing to do, besides drinking it (and she does like to sip my hot coffee or hot tea, by the way) was to pull the straw OUT of the cup and lick off the whipped cream. Very cute, but also rather messy. She had cream and coffee droplets all over her face, her carseat, her dress, etc. Oh well. It could be an Mastercard commercial. Cost of gas to get to Starbucks? 50 cents. Cost of a venti Starbucks drink? 4 dollars. Cost of a box of wipes to clean up the mess? 3 dollars. Passing on a love of coffee to my toddler? Priceless. 

And now I’m off to chase my caffeine-laced child. Naw, she barely got a few sips…she was mostly interested in the cream. That’s my girl! But she really is busy running around and giggling, with no signs of slowing down yet. Ugh. It’s 20 till 10pm. I’m rather glad for the caffeine I had.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Today is a junk mail day. I hate junk mail days--those days in which nothing interesting comes in the mail. Ordinarily, mail might not be "an event". But for a homeschooling Mom of (almost) 4, well, life gets s-l-o-w around here, and there are days that even internet buzz is slow. On such days, it is a delight to find something of interest in the mailbox. Y'know...a glossy new magazine; perhaps Martha Stewart...or...well, that's my only current subscription, and although I love the magazine, she sure needs to step into REAL LIFE someday. LOL. Even the jail stint didn't do it! Maybe I need to add something else! Anyway, maybe a personal letter or card might come, an unexpected check (yeah, that's a rarity, but we praise God when it happens!)...maybe a much-anticipated Netflix movie (even if it's for the kids, then, hey! Mom might get a break!). Something, anything...grocery ads with which to menu plan.... I digress.

But today, there was NOTHING. A pathetic flyer of non-ads and a single envelope hiding some ridiculous offer. Straight into the trash it went. Oh, what a lovely thing it would have been, if a new magazine had come! But it did not.

And to add to the day's misery, I have a nasty headache--which I've medicated, but to no avail. It is all sinus-related. Thanks to the lingering cold I have. And my toddler has caught it as well. The good thing about that is simply that I give myself permission to medicate her at night time--which means--she'll fall asleep early. Hopefully. But I'd still rather she were healthy. My head is throbbing. That kind of throbbing in which it makes my stomach nauseated. Yuck.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Another Thursday to be Thankful

This week it is quite easy to come up with a thankful list: it’s been a good week, all the way around! These are the weeks to really praise God for His grace in our current situations, for the life He’s given me, for my family that surrounds me, and the home we live in. And those definitely top my list!!

I am thankful for the time I had with my oldest daughter last night. We visited some fabric stores, searching for the perfect quilt backing material for the baby quilt I’m working on. While unsuccessful, I did choose the store I will return to and check again. We also enjoyed Starbucks together—one of her favorite things to do with Mom. What precious time together! Being the oldest is a tough job, and it is truly a blessing to have time out that we both enjoy.

I am thankful for some good, solid talks and eventual resolutions that my husband and I were able to work through this week. Nothing earth-shattering; just the kind of stuff that life brings once in awhile.

I am thankful for the fresh garden vegetables we’ve received this year; mostly from my Dad, but also from our neighbor. The girls and I love vegetables so we really enjoy it! My son and husband, well, not so much…but that’s okay.

I am thankful that the kids have had a wonderful week of Bible School! They leave, so excited every day…and come home tired, but full of words! What a blessing to have a nearby, small church they can attend at; a place where I feel comfortable letting them go, and where my neighbor herself goes along with them. It is a delightful week every single year. Even my toddler hasn’t noticed her siblings missing (partly due to PBS!) which has been an additional blessing, as she is typically very aware and very unhappy to be left out of anything!!

I am thankful for some rearranging we did in our home, to make our space suited to the way we are currently living and the stages our children are at. So far, these little changes are working so well for us!

I’m thankful that this summer cold I caught is almost over! I was just dead tired Tuesday—unusual as that is typically a good day in the week—and it turns out, I was working on a cold. YUCK. But it seems that perhaps I will be able to throw it off without too much trouble. Praise God! I hate being sick—and pregnant—and a Mommy, all at the same time!

I’m thankful that August is nearly here—I’m tired of summer—and this marks our last month. School starts around here, mid-month, so the city’s attractions, parks, libraries, will once again be quiet in the daytime. And I can enjoy the back-to-school sales, as our budget allows.

I’m thankful for the many homeschooling resources, websites, books, etc that enable uncreative folks like myself to homeschool with ease. Well, with relative ease. There is so much information out there, so many terrific blogs full of inspiration and ideas…so many books that are uplifting and encouraging…I am truly thankful for them all. AND, for the freedom to homeschool as I desire. There are many countries which still hold homeschooling illegal, and many places in which it is not so easily done. Here in America, it is legal, relatively simple in most districts, and we are blessed with much support from one another. How incredibly fortunate we are that others have worked hard, and sacrificed much to pave this road. And that legal teams (HSLDA specifically) continue the work, ensuring continued freedom for all of us.

On a lighter note, I am thankful for my “black currant” tea today—it is hot right now, but a 2nd cup is brewing, which will then be iced. Ahhhhhh!

Time to go switch laundry and get to some kitchen work awaiting me. Hope you all have a great week-ending, as you look into your own lives, and consider the blessings, both big and small. Even in the midst of trials, there is always something to thank Our God for—even if it is simply life itself.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

A list to be thankful for

Ahhhh, another Thursday has arrived. And last week, I missed it. Life was busy—just—well—being lived! Oh, how I miss blogging, but, with 3.5 kids about…it seems that my time to “blog” is much limited. I know that many of you relate to this, and I see dear xanga pals leave, or be absent for weeks at a time. I miss them—but—I understand. Blogging cannot come before actually living the life we blog about!! And a blog must be for “our” convenience, even when we wish to minister or encourage others with our sites. We cannot become slaves to the blog. But for those of us who feel drawn to “writing”, the struggle for balance continues. J Despite the changes to my personal time, I am so thankful for my children. They are amazing (most days!). And I’m thankful for my husband too—their Daddy.

Today, I have already begun laundry—which—is behind, as usual. I have decided that I may never actually “catch up” with it. It will be rotating piles instead. Just when I catch up the clothing, there are endless sheets and towels. But the hardest part is “starting” each day…and since I’ve started it, I will soon have the reward of switching the load to the dryer—and—washing load #2 for the day. I hope to get a 3rd done as well. We shall see. But I’m thankful for energy to get started, at least.

School has been less “serious” this week, as we’ve spent some time with games (which typically have some educational value), with books (which we love!), and with imaginative play (which builds brother/sister relationship bonds). I am thankful for the delightful sounds of playing and laughter, and reading aloud, and squealing over games. We also had some time at the nearby park, with Daddy; our city park dept added a new piece of equipment, so of course, we HAD to go! Our neighborhood park is a great one, and worthy of being “thankful for”!

I am also thankful to have chicken marinating for dinner tonight. It isn’t every day that I’m on top of dinner, even before lunch time!! But this is one of those great days. J

Yesterday, I was FINALLY able to restock my black teas, at my favorite local store. Green teas are just not tasting right to me, during this pregnancy. Weird, and annoying, since I had already stocked up my favorite greens. BUT, I do love black tea as well—and—there are some wonderful flavors to be had. Today, I simply enjoyed a cup of “English Breakfast”; a nice, mild and plain-flavored tea. And good with milk, I might add! I particularly love the blends that my favorite shop puts together (I generally buy my spices here as well). Anyway, I also purchased Apricot Brandy, Earl Gray, and Black Currant to keep me caffeinated. I will be icing the Apricot Brandy, as well as enjoying it hot. I’ve been out of these teas for awhile, so I am incredibly thankful to have them in my tea cupboard again.

I’m thankful to have stocked the fridge—although it won’t last! I have a Sam's membership, thanks to my Dad, and the bonus is that it’s a “business membership”. This doesn’t mean much—but—it allows me to get in early (7am to 10am) and shop when the warehouse is less crowded than normal, as the general memberships are not allowed in until 10am. I’ve never taken advantage of this benefit—until yesterday! Wow! What a difference in time. I didn’t have a large list, but I sure glided right through the store, and strolled right up to an open register to check out. Yippeee! (Yes, it is easy to “make my day!”)

My husband brought me a Starbucks card! Many of you know that this is well worth a place on my thankful list. It is the season for iced mochas, after all! And without a prepaid card, Starbucks is a rare treat. The card, is an even rarer treat, I might add!

I’m thankful for shopping options; Dillons (Kroger) which puts on some good sales, Walmart (supposedly the lowest everyday prices), Sam’s, etc…as gasoline prices rise, and our local natural gas and water prices go up (ugh!), it seems that our pockets are squeezed tighter, and we have no increase in pay to help this. These companies can all pass on THEIR expenses, but, we are stuck paying them, with no way out. In addition, as I’ve mentioned, our groceries go up regularly. Are you all noticing this too? Frustrating! My Sam’s expenses were about $5 above what they were two weeks ago on dairy items alone! Anyway…I will have to work harder at cutting coupons again, and at price-shopping, even if it means hitting more than one store. My drive time isn’t much at all, as we live within 5 miles (or so) of all 3 grocery chains. I’m thankful to be close enough to shop around—and—to have the options here in our metro area.

I’m thankful, above all, to be able to take my concerns to God. To trust Him for our provisions. Sure, I must do my part, and try to be a wise steward—thus the additional grocery endeavors! But I can trust in His word, that He will provide for our needs. And He often blesses us with small luxuries too, which I cannot take for granted. As tightly as we live, we are rich by comparison. And richly blessed with children, too. Our society today is much more concerned with the “cost” of raising kids, than with the blessing that these little ones are. I am thankful to view them as gifts from God—however difficult some weeks may be—they are, indeed, gifts to cherish. I do not know how I would have any peace at all, if it weren’t for resting in His promises, and the knowledge that someday, this world shall pass away, with all its trials and struggles.

Congratulations to all of you who actually finished READING this thankful list!! I always appreciate hearing from you, and reading many of your blogs regularly. May you each have a wonderful day, as you consider the blessings in your life—both big and small.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Been awhile...

Well! I haven't visited my beloved "private" blog in far too long. And for good reason; shortly after my last post, I became incredibly ill for a couple of months. Ill with a new baby, that is! Yup, come December, we will (with God's grace) welcome baby #4 into our household. My first trimester of pregnancy is ALWAYS a total wipeout in which I seek mainly to survive. I did--thanks to my patient kids, my helpful (in crisis!!) husband, and Our Gracious God.

Now...I'm entering trimester 2, and feeling some of my energy return. Of course, that cuppa joe--or tea--helps. And honestly, I'm up to about 2 cups each morning. LOL.

While no one actually READS this blog--or at least, no one that I'm aware of--my intent is, to keep up with this blog periodically; for my self, as well as for anyone who happens by! As well, to be able to share some thoughts I may not share on my other blog which is read by many folks I "know" (family included!). I desire to be the same person to all, but, reality is that it is often easier to open up to strangers--and sometimes innermost thoughts are too private for folks you actually KNOW to read. How's that for irony? Then there's always the pressure to be "who I am"--even though I may be changing, morphing, etc. Anyway, here's a link to my other blog, where I am more frequently found: http://www.xanga.com/SimpliciTea

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

The River Within...

"A writer desires to be known, as we all do. And so, a writer pours out his or her soul onto paper, expecting to one day be read. Whether before death or after, in inconsequential…there is simply the hope that one day, the words will live for someone else, the way that they lived in the soul of he or she who wrote them. There is often a river of emotion flowing deep within, and eventually, the river will flood the soul, if it is not given a way to escape. Perhaps they have wisdom to pass onto others, lessons learned; or perhaps they have fictional stories coming alive in their minds. Maybe it is song lyrics playing in their heads yearning to be matched to melody, or words of poetry springing to life as the world is viewed and experienced. Or it could simply be the passion of living, a longing to be set free with words, all that is in the heart. But whatever the reason, the waterfall of words cannot be stopped; the river within the soul of a writer will not be calmed; as long as words exist, the river will not run dry. These words deep within a writer will be like waves crashing against a river’s banks, until they are released by paper and pen, and offered to the world as tangible evidence of the writer’s existence. The words must find a way out so that the writer’s soul will not drown and be forever lost. Not everyone understands this, for not everyone is a writer; but it is true. No, it cannot be denied; for writing becomes a need to the soul, as water is a need to the body. And so if you long to write, then write, dear friend! Set free your words, release your soul, and be known. Find refreshment and joy in the waterfall of written words. Do not wait to wade deeply into the river of your soul!"

Thursday, January 18, 2007

All about the love?

Sometimes I wonder what “the world” must think of us. You know who I’m talking about…all of us “Christians” running around flapping our gums about God and His laws and His love and Christian unity…singing about “victory in Jesus” (ironic, given our constant struggles with the same old stuff)…about His “amazing grace” (which we claim to have, yet cannot seem to share). We stand piously on our Bibles, on its verses, on the Ten Commandments; we sit Sunday after Sunday in our comfortable chairs (or cushioned pews) and we greet our friends, sing our songs, shout a few amens, and go home to live that victorious Christian life we’re all busy proclaiming we have (yelling at the kids all the way home…or fighting with our spouse over where we might eat lunch…or sharing the latest tidbits of ‘church gossip’ we just received that day).

But let’s step back for a moment. Do we really live that life? Do we really believe those words written in our Bibles? Let’s just take the familiar passage of 1 Corinthians 13. Yeah, you know the one; it’s the love chapter. We quote it all the time, use its words at all our weddings, and we hear sermons on it regularly. We probably even spout it to our kids when teaching them how to treat one another, and we sure like to pull those verses out to “share” with our spouses when we aren’t getting our way. Okay, maybe I’m the only one raising my hand.

Do you suppose we ever sound like a resounding gong (verse 1) with our empty words of “love”? Do you think God really meant for Paul to say that we could have the gift of prophecy and faith to move mountains, but without love, we are nothing (verse 2)? How about the next verse? Paul goes on to say, we could give all we possess to the poor, but if we have not love, we gain NOTHING. So, the act of “giving to the poor” in and of itself, apparently is not necessarily a sound demonstration of love. Hmmmm. Interesting.

And now for the really familiar words: Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. (Know any Christians who boast? Who are prideful? Yes, this is a trick question, because inevitably someone else’s name will pop into your head, as it does mine—and then POW, we are dangerously close to that whole pride/boasting thing after all! Ever been envious of anyone else? No? Good! Then you are actually happy for your friends/neighbors/family when they get new furniture while your shabby and dated couch pops another spring. And you’d rather your pal have that new shirt you saw at the store last week, right? Let’s think bigger—how do we react when our friends/neighbors/family move into their dream home while our own house is bursting at the seams and it’s time to do yet another repair “project”).

Let’s go on. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking OK, OK, stop already! I’m pretty sure I can be really rude when I don’t get my way. And if I had less pride, I could pull a couple of very recent examples right off the top of my head. And what about that whole self-seeking bit? Do we often put the interests of others above our own? NOT! Let’s just scratch the surface of what that means…how often do we use our spending money to bless someone else? Sacrificially, I mean. Blessing someone else when it pinches our wallets a bit? When we “needed” that $20 ourselves? Because it’s pretty easy to “give” when it doesn’t hurt ourselves. Now what about letting someone else “win” the argument when we know we are right! By the way, I have perfectionist tendencies, control-issues, and since I know right from wrong so well, I pretty much expect that everyone else should too. So, yeah, I know what I’m talking about here. J

It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Wondering, just now, what possessed me to blog about this in the first place. I’m not the most quick-tempered person I know, but my husband might disagree. My kids might disagree also. And I may not hold grudges, but hey, I don’t have to, because I have a REALLY good memory!!

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in truth. In other words, maybe we can’t be so quick to smile when (insert name) falls off their carefully built throne. Maybe we should grieve when (insert name again) has all their poor decisions catch up to them, rather than being the first to say “they deserved it!” Or maybe, instead of judging that nose-ring-wearing kid with the spiked hair, we be the first to welcome them to church—because after all, we actually want them to find the truth! To be set free by it! To experience the revolutionary love of Jesus (which, by the way, was consistently given to society’s rejects, by Jesus Himself).

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. Seriously? Do you suppose Paul meant to write those words? We are to continually hope for the best? We keep giving love to (insert name) even though they never return it and it doesn’t seem to make a difference? We should protect those around us, rather than seeking to slander them? (I know we Christians never actually slander—we “vent” or we share “prayer requests”…our we politely gossip over lunch…but we certainly don’t “slander”. That’s malicious after all!)

And Paul goes on, wrapping up his thoughts, here, and reminded us to GROW UP (verse 11) because we are to put our childish ways behind us. So, back to this whole “love” thing…maybe we can step up and love our families. Y’know, be a little more patient with our kids, give into our spouses’ desires over our own for a day or two. But let’s stretch out a bit. How about to our extended family? Our parents, our siblings and their families, our IN-LAWS (caps used for my own benefit). Does this “love is unselfish” bit include holidays too? Yeah, it probably does. Christmas especially, since, after all, that’s when we’re celebrating Jesus and remembering God’s love for us in sending His Son to earth. Let’s go to the next ripple in our ever-widening circle. What about our friends at church, or those we don’t really like very well? What about the homeless guy who only comes for the free coffee and central heating? And that family that sits in the back—the ones who wear t-shirts and whose kids have stained clothes and are poorly behaved?

Let’s ripple out to the “non-Christians” next door—the biker guy and his live-in girlfriend? The unmarried couple on the other side; yeah, the ones with the kids or step-kids or whatever-they-are. What about that gay guy?

Let’s ripple farther to those of another political party? Maybe the left-wingers? Or the right-wingers? Maybe those of another race or ethnicity? Even another religion?

What about those in the Body of Christ who worship at another church? No, no, not your sister church—I mean the one who doesn’t quite believe the same way YOUR church believes. Or those folks who attend the mega church with its luxurious décor, its coffee bar and state-of-the-art sound system? Yeah, that church. Where all the rich people go who just want to feel good for going to church every Sunday. (Oops. That sounded dangerously close to pride again. And I might have just forgotten about the ‘rejoice in truth’ bit. WHO AM I to judge the hearts of a crowd just because their church is so large? And because they have a famous Pastor?) What about that tiny church down the street—the one that’s so dead, all it’s members are literally dying of old age? Or that one across town that our neighbor goes to, but we wouldn’t go there because they’re pretty dry—just not quite as far along as “our” church. Spiritually, I mean. Are all these groups of people in the SAME BODY OF CHRIST? Are we acting like it?

If we find these divisions among ourselves so easily, and if we can identify with them, why do we think we’re fooling “the world?” And what on earth is going to bring any of the “lost” into our doors? Because once they’re in, we’ll turn the key and lock it. We’ll explain why our church is the “only” one—or maybe we’ll say the “best” one. We’ll explain (politely) all they need to do to change and fit into our congregation. We’ll sign them up for the programs that need help, and explain how it’s “Christian duty”. And we’ll tell them all about the love of Christ. And we’ll get them baptized and sanctified and all that. We’ll hand them our favorite version of the Bible, it will, of course, be the “right” version, but if they happen to have another one at home, we’ll allow them to keep it too. We might even invite them to lunch! And hopefully, they’ll ignore our backbiting and gossiping and judging and selfishness and pride and arrogance and all that stuff, and they’ll stay. Because we need numbers, and we like to see people saved. (and if they hang around long enough, they might even start to tithe!) And of course, because they’ll see the victory we have in Jesus, and they’ll want some of it too. (As soon as they quit drinking, stop smoking, shed their extra earrings, cover up their tattoos, get married to their live-in, turn from the wicked ways, and follow Jesus, that is).

Maybe I’d better read back through the “love” chapter…and maybe I’d better read more about how Jesus “loved” others. I’m not sure I’ve got this down yet.

Friday, January 5, 2007

Overcast Friday...

This morning, glancing out the window just as daylight was arriving, I saw that it was going to be the perfect “soup day”. But what kind, what kind? I found beef in broth, frozen, from a roast made some time back. Perfect to use for dinner, along with “just enough” frozen veggies remaining in a bag. Add a jar of my home-canned, stewed tomatoes…I had all I needed on hand. Boy, I wish my dinner plans were always “that” easy! (For 2 years, I’ve resolved to do menu planning, and tried various systems…bottom line? Nothing has stuck yet. But I’m still tryin’) I also found a new recipe for “perfect” brownies to try…I cut ‘em really small, but I’ve already had 2. They’re really, really good. I’ll probably post the recipe today or tomorrow. It’s worth sharing!

And so, it is early evening…we have gray skies; the air is cold and crisp with a stiff breeze. We haven’t seen the sun today, and this morning, we had drizzly winter rain falling for a time. I love days like this—perfect for a loaf of bread, freshly baked; a pot of soup simmering on the stove; and a pan of home-made brownies, still warm from the oven. A cozy candle burns in the kitchen, adding another light layer of scent. Mmmmm, cranberry!

No, my days do not always flow smoothly…but today, despite a very fussy baby, things have rolled along without much difficulty. Until I sat down to blog, that is. LOL. I paint a peaceful picture…and for a few moments, the scene is as I paint it to be. But those blessed moments do not last. And dinner is, sometimes, PB & J sandwiches. Or (gasp!) a bowl of cold cereal. And then I resolve to do better, the next day.

My husband called; he’s late again, getting off work. Every day this week, he’s been at least an hour late coming home—the next shift people don’t come on time…his boss adds to an already full “to-do” list…various reasons. All amounting to, a tired Daddy and a tired Mama. And split-up mealtimes. But my husband will be happy to come home to some brownies, at least—I hope! And likely, a bowl of warm and hearty soup along with a thick slice of bread will hit the spot as well. Praise God that today, I was able to put together a meal worth coming home to!!!